Last August was supposed to be your 59th birthday (if you're still alive). Meanwhile, I'll turn 25 in the next 4 months. Whew, time flies so fast especially when you're not around. Even if you're no longer around, you're still on my mind on some days (or should I say, all the time?). But today, it just hits harder, probably because I'm starting a new job next Monday. YEAH I got a new job ibu 😽 Oh wait... Oh no, I think there's A LOT of things that you've missed out.. Yelah 13 years without you kot! Can you imagine how hard is it to grow without you for 13 freaking years? Okay, sorry, not your fault that you had to leave first. I bet you don't even want to leave at the first place. Okay ibu, it's time to recap on those 13 years!
For starter, yes, I finished school! 🎉 I got 7As for PMR and only 6As for SPM, which both didn't really hit my target but the past is past 🌟 Oh yeah, I broke up with A in 2013 and the last time we spoke to each other was through Instagram DM on my birthday in 2020 (before I was removed from the following/followers lists). :'( But that's okay, God replaced A with another A, B, F, and I, my new soulmates 💖 Okay moving on, after school, I got myself.... a law degree! I think you might be surprised as to why did I take law. Don't worry Ibu, it was fate all along (I think lah hahah).
Not long after I finished law school, I kicked off my journey to be a legal practitioner. I started my pupillage/chambering in October 2020. To be honest Ibu, that was one of the hardest journeys I've ever went through. The thoughts of you giving me support throughout my chambering journey were always there. I wanted you to be there, to accompany me. Alas, I had no choice but to persevere. There were times when your dad, abahtok fell ill and I had to go back and forth from KL to JB. I was worried because what if.. what if he's also leaving me? I'm not ready for that although I know well that he's been sick for the past few years. But at the end of my chambering, your beloved mom, my beloved maktok passed away all of sudden. It happened during MCO which reminds me of the time when you passed away (it was hard to visit people in the hospitals, remember?). Somehow, I managed to cross state and bid farewell for the last time. I was at the lowest point of my life in 2021. Because of her death, I rejected the offer to be retained in my firm. But somehow, I retracted back lol. Kinda embarrassing but it was a good decision to stay anyway, because I got myself new friends <3
Fast forward, I finally had my graduation ceremony in 2022 (2 years later than the actual year!!). Quite late but better than none, right? But of course, I was a bit sad, because you weren't there to witness it. I tried my best to not be sad you know? You were also not there for my long call ceremony. I cried like a baby on my long call day knowing that you were no longer around. Especially when the Judge consoled me at her closing speech :'')) Both events were super meaningful to me, I'm just going to assume that you're watching me from the sky or something :') Oh yeah, I got myself a brand new car. Although it's not a fancy brand. but it's good enough to teleport me everywhere :]]
Now? I just finished my 1 year PQE as a lawyer on 24th September 2022. To be honest ibu, I'm scared to start anew. I've grown to be comfortable at my old firm after 1 year and 11 months with them. But I need to go out and venture on new things, so I decided to quit. (ok lol to be honest it was done on impulse...) But, do I regret? Probably, but I think it's a sign that I still need to leave and start a new job. So yeah, I don't know what to expect for my new job. Probably I would be busier than ever! Haha anything to keep the food on the table, kan?
Love life? Sorry ibu to disappoint you but your daughter is just SO bad at it. She's had countless FAILED talking stages to the point that she's giving up lol. I got hurt so bad and MANY times *sighs*, when will I learn??? LOL okay lah partially my fault because I have fearful avoidant/anxious attachment and I'm bad at reciprocating so.. yeah, I'm no longer hoping for anything anymore... That's it, that's the only update on my love life hahaha :'))
Whew, that's a long letter. See what happens when you left me way too soon? I have a lot more other things to say but I'm just going to focus on my small achievements in my life and some small life updates. Alright Ibu, just know that you'll always be on my mind and I love you. I'll write again when I have free time <3
"Is it wrong if I don't want to get married?" I asked myself this question for few times after discussing with my school friends about getting a partner in life.
Today, I had a catch up session with two of my school friends and we talked about a lot of things. One of the things that we talked about is - of course, marriage. I don't mind talking about that since I know damn well that almost all my school friends already have their own partners, so it's inevitable for them to talk about their love life. I also enjoy listening to them talking about their relationships as long as it's not too much lmao.
Suddenly, both of them turned to me and asked me, if I have a boyfriend. I told them, "Nope, I'm currently busy thinking about my future career and stuff, also I don't think I would get married because I don't like men around me and I just don't like men in general lmao." But both of them were quite dissatisfied with my answer and they kept on bugging me, saying things like, girl, don't worry you'll find the right one, yadda yadda.
I somehow got a bit annoyed so I just told them, look, the reason why I think I wouldn't get married (for now) is because I don't think I really need a man in my life. I told them, 'hey don't you guys remember how much I hated marriage during school? And how I told y'all so many times that I think I wouldn't get married and see, I'm still single until now lmao, and things never changed, I stay the same with this mindset of not wanting to get married.'
However, they were still dissatisfied with my opinion, so they told me, if you don't get married, Prophet pbuh wouldn't consider you as his ummah, (so basically they were advising me about how important marriage is in Islam). Well they were not wrong though. I told myself, well I think I should just listen to them and not say anything because lmao I don't want to be lectured for another 30 minutes about marriage in Islam and its importance in life.
Then, I asked them, is it really that wrong for me to not get married? Once again, they advised me saying that women must get married no matter what. At that point, I just went 'ooh..' and just nodded. I just kept quiet and thought that, aahh no matter what I explain to them, they just wouldn't accept.
The reason why I wrote this is because I was frustrated the whole time when they were discussing about this. And I'm disappointed with the fact that my friends wouldn't accept my answers to their question. I guess their conservative minds wouldn't want to accept any excuses from me lmao. But seriously though, I really hate it when people shove their opinions on me, so that's why it irked me so much to the point that I have to write this down to cool down and forget about that conversation.
Back to the question that I asked myself, I really wonder if it is really wrong for me to opt to be single? I am definitely not an asexual, but what I know for now, I don't have the time to think about my love life. Sure, I love those romance dramas on TV but I just don't think it's necessary. Also, I became scared of marriage ever since I had to see my own family members (including extended family members) going through divorces or separations. Shits like that scarred me so badly that thinking about it would make me wanna weep. Imagine if I eventually get married (who knows, we don't know about God's plans right?), and I have to go through shits like that again? I might as well kill myself or ??? I don't know. For the religion part, I agree with it but it's eventually up to God to decide if it's sinful or whatnot if I don't want to get married. Life is not all about marriage to me and there is so much more to life other than marriage. There is nothing wrong for a person to choose to devote their life to marriage, and there is also nothing wrong for a person to choose to be single for their whole life...
I don't mind being single, and I don't care if people around me want to date or fuck around. It's up to them, and it's their choice. Also, it's up TO ME to choose to get married or not, since it's MY CHOICE. The one who's gonna live my life is ME so of course I should be able to make my own choice. Okay this is going nowhere anyways, but yeah, I just feel really sad seeing how my friends didn't understand me. But that's understandable since I never opened up to them about how screwed my life is and how challenges that I went through had shaped my mindset this way. Probably this is also the reason why I could not open up.. It's because I just want people to listen to me, and try to understand, and not to give me some whack excuses.. (I've opened up to one of them before about having a broken family, but sadly she didn't understand so that's why until now, I couldn't open up easily to close friends).
That's all,,, I wish I could open up to my close friends about the situations in my life without any worries or prejudices. 😞😞😞
(c) jtbc's Diary of A Prosecutor (aka War of Prosecutors)
-- THIS was exactly my reaction/facial expression throughout that conversation LMAOOOO--
took this picture for fun & i colored it bnw &
edited motion blur for this 'haunting' feeling.
Throughout 22 years of living, I had to go through the worst phase in my life, twice. I was only 11 when I was 'forced' by the Almighty to g through the phase & the second phase (read: separation) happened 10 years after, when I was 21.
Separation is a really cruel process (or phase in life). I can barely do anything about it. I never knew that I had to go through this phase again only after 10 years later.
During the first separation phase in my life, I didn't really understand... I was sad I couldn't even see that person anymore.. Lord had separated us and she went to a better place, probably heaven. And I was left alone in a hell, knowing barely anything about life. I was clueless... a lost child who had to learn everything on her own. The struggle...? :|
The second separation phase...? I thought it wouldn't hurt as bad as the first one since I went through it, but jeez!!! I thought being an adult (or young adult or whatever) would make it easier for me to go through such horror. I told myself, okay this too, shall pass! But that was definitely not the case. What I got in return was... I was in confusion, regret, resentment... and many other complex feelings. I had a nightmare about this horror before, but I didn't expect that it would actually happen.. Just like 10 years ago, or maybe worse, I had no one to talk to about this. I spent my Raya Eid in my room. I didn't have the courage to meet anyone. My family didn't go back to hometown as usual. I deactivated all my social accounts. I felt helpless and spent the whole month crying alone in the room. That was a hell. I felt sorry for her as she also had to go through this separation as well. Although this time, I can at least see her again, because the 'separation' was different than before (I'm thankful for this though...)
Now, it's 2020. 6 months have passed since then. I have nothing to hope for but for my life to get better after this, and to gain more strength?... I just wish that I could have someone whom I would trust, to offer me a shoulder to lean on because that's what I really really really really really really need. Or maybe, I hope I have strength to open up to people so I don't have to carry the burden silently all by myself.. *sighs*
----- This post is super depressing, I'm sorry to anyone who reads this (if ada lol). also, FML i h8 everyone :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
EDIT: lmao loooking back at this post and the gif that i used.... CRINGEEE!! lol
Earlier during the Ramadhan month, I just finished my finals for my second semester. Well, that means... I SURVIVED MY FIRST YEAR IN LAW SCHOOL!! Well, law school is definitely a tough journey for all future lawyers or judges out there, trust me. So I survived my freaking first year without quitting halfway :')
Looking back to those two semesters that I spent... lol I actually went through a lot. Like... urm.. a lot lah hohoho. I've mentioned in my previous post before that I got accepted to Law School UUM(Northern University of Malaysia or Universiti Utara Malaysia). In UUM, we use the word 'school' instead of 'faculty' so we got 'School of Law', 'School of Accounting' and etc! Cool isn't it?? Ceh biasa je lol nama je kot. Anyway, I will introduce more about UUM Law School and my journey during the first year for the Session 2016/2017 :))
I'm pretty sure most foundation law students that graduated would avoid UUM's Law School (because I was one of those kids who were very skeptical and didn't want to enrol here :p). I know it's because UUM's Law School is not the top law school in Malaysia. Somehow, if you get UUM's Law School later on, don't worry. You're going to survive here, unless if you're a snobbish little bratz that can't stay at remote(?) town called Sintok/Changloon lol. Of course the place is quite far from Alor Setar town, it takes us 30-45mins to get there by car, if I'm not mistaken. But you masuk university nak belajar ke nak main weh,,, no need to worry about shopping malls and those places sangat pun tbh -_-
UUM is a good place for studyholic students and a greattt place for those who want to be free from the city. It's hassle-free when it comes to accommodations and transportation (except for students at Kachi lol) to go to lectures. For accommodations, all students will be staying at the residential colleges, so you don't have to worry about renting a place outside. Unlike other universities, you have to be really active in college in order to stay in your residential college or otherwise, you'll be kicked out and have to spend a lot of money to rent outside. Especially area KL and Selangor. So, this is one of the benefits of studying at UUM. /this is not a promo anyway haha/ But you cannot choose your own residential colleges except if you have a problem and need to transfer to other residential college. And your roommate might or might not be someone from your course. Also, UUM is strict when it comes to dress code. You gotta wear formal clothes to classes/lectures. You cannot simply wear a crop top with short pants or jeans... But sometimes I just wear my T-shirt lol I'm lucky that most of the time, my law lecturers didn't care about our clothes as long as our clothes are appropriate.
For law students... y'all can wear black and white as usual but mostly, we only wear bnw outfits on Mondays lol. But memang tak ramai pakai bnw because nanti orang cakap korunk kerek lol especially non-law students. But up to you lah if you want to wear bnw or colourful outfits.. And law students takde double-degree/major and minor degree like other courses tau! Since our course is VERY heavy and we have like 160-172(sorry can't remember) credit hours while other courses only have like 120-150 credit hours only :'''''''''''''''))))) unfair isn't it but what can we do, we still have to go through those 172 hellish hours to get the precious LLB... harharhar.... ._.
There are 7 core university subjects that law students are bound to study. Those subjects are Principles of Management, Ethnic R/ship, Computer Applications in Management, Business Accounting, Intro to Entrepreneurship, Islamic and Asian Civilizations, Malaysia National/Kenegaraan M'sia. We also need to choose one elective subject but the subject must not be from School of Law. You must choose subject from, perhaps, School of Government or etc.
We also must choose our elective programs (law subjects). Previously law students have to choose 12 elective subjects but after some changes in UUM's law program, we can only choose 5 elective subjects. And most of the elective subjects are related to business/corporate so if you are not interested in business or corporate laws, you may choose to not study here lol. But we have Cyber Law, Intellectual Property Law, Environmental Law, Shipping Law, and etc (sorry I couldn't remember) if you still want to study law at UUM.
One more thing, I was from UiTM's law foundation and foundation students, y'all know that back then we didn't choose groups(classes) and timetables by our own right? We had to follow the schedules that were given by the management of UiTM. But students at UUM,, you have to register your own subjects.. You have to arrange timetables by your own. But the good thing is you can choose any groups that you want and what time you are going to finish all your classes. However, it is difficult to register for classes since you have to fight for limited places for a subject. My batch had a problem and some were not satisfied because there were only 50 seats(? lol tf) for Copyright Law and my batch consists of 110-130 ppl. And honestly, it was a mess hahahaha because everyone had to wait for the internet server to work so that everyone could register subjects that we want.
For co-curriculum, all students are allowed to choose their own co-curriculum programs. UUM students need to take the co-curriculum programs for 4 semesters (except for SUKSIS, PALAPES - 6 semesters). However, we must choose properly because later on, you cannot change your co-curriculum programs... FOREVER. Unless if you want to join SUKSIS or Palapes then you can request but you might pass or fail lah.. I chose Karate Do for my co-curriculum program. Karate Do is very fun to learn, we have regular practices on Mondays and Thursdays (night) but you may skip those practices if you want. But you have to pay RM60 as a fee per year(for two semesters) and you will need to pay for grading fees as well so if you don't want to spend money for co-curriculum program, you don't have to join. But if you want to enjoy your co-curriculum program, then by all means, come and join us! However, it's limited only to 100 students only. First come first serve maa.. But you still can join the Karate Do club if you want to learn karate :3
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Okay, thanks for reading my post! Have a great day xoxo. :)))))))
Assalamualaikum and hi there! It's been a long time since my last update! Well, I didn't have time to update my blog and also it's because I don't have any idea on what to write lol. ANYWAY, it's been months since I left and graduated from my foundation studies. Well, yeah like other students, I applied UPU for degree intakes (September intakes). And yeap, most of my choices are law (okay actually not most pun just that my top 5 choices were law. My choices were :-
1) UiTM - Law
2) UKM - Law
3) UiTM - Masscom (lol idk why did i choose this)
4) UUM - Law
5) UniSZA - Law
& so on (not-related to law because we only have 6 law schools here)..
I got the interviews for UM and UiTM (both for law course) but somehow... I didn't make it. :/ I think it's because I failed to do my best during the interviews *sighs*. Months after waiting for the UPU result, I finally got the result. I.... got into... LAW SCHOOL!! /yeah i was happy/ BUT THEN.. when I checked which university... it's UUM. lol .
Honestly, I was kinda disappointed because I was rooting for law school UM (because I thought the interviewers like me haih...). Besides, I was sad because my other friends got accepted to other top law schools as well (like UM.. UKM.. and UiTM). Wait, I'm not implying that UUM law school is bad but since it's new so... welp idk how to explain..
But that's not the end tho. At least, I still get the chance to get into law school. I'm still not satisfied tho (lol what an ungrateful bij :|).
I've finished my first semester last week, and hoLy shIEtzzz,,, if y'all going to get into law school, get your mental and physical ready because law school ain't that easy!!!!! it's tough and i feel like a dying chicken okay. I mean, aisdaisgdiygfg \_\ ...
Sorry guys I just can't write properly nowadays lol. (That's the aftermath of joining law school, folks... get ready to be tormented every single day yeay!!!)
I'll update later about law school in UUM if I have time. For now, I have to spend my semester break by doing works -- as in, reading cases, doing revision on contract because I'm joining mooting and going to represent UUM lol.. 50% regrets for joining because I just want to rest for the whole semester break lol
still sad over the fact that i can't enjoy my holiday to the fullest lol fml
sorry if my writing sucks because yes my writing sucks so bad i need to space out for awhile adios xoxo kisses :3
I got bored so I'm going to answer these weird questions that I found online lol I have no life :( 1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
Both since I'm an awkward person :")
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
I get mad very easily even for trivial reasons lol. But hm I forgot when was the last time I get really angry..
3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
Wait-- are we even allowed to make a phone call in airplane?? I thought cannot meh??
4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
I would be very worried because I'm scared that my bad deeds>good deeds :O I'm not sure about telling people that I'm going to die but I would leave little hints about that to my closest friends and family. For the remaining days, I would spend my days happily because I ... want..to..die..happily..?. Yeah
5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
Trust because that's very important in a friendship/relationship.
6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
Let's be realistic... I might not even realise that the dog's there because I'm already late to work lol. But if I happen to see it, I would check if there's other pedestrian nearby. If there isn't any, then I can't do nothing much about it... I don't know how to swim (if the canal is big..)... what a selfish me :(
7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most? I would rather be hurt by the one I hate the most okay. lol ok ok this is hard.. both would hurt me very bad equally so both??
8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
This would never happen to me... BUT if it happens someday, firstly I would check my feelings first if the feelings are mutual or only one-sided. If I happen to have mutual feelings with that person, then I would accept his/her confession.. if no, then sorry not sorry but I think I can still remain as friend with he/she :D but meh it won't happen. Who would fall in love with a dumb ass like me :D
9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
Well, she's not the last person I know that died. But I got the chance, I would definitely do that. Even if I have to give up my whole 118 years of my existence, I wouldn't care but nah that won't happen..
10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
Honestly, NO.
11. Does love = sex?
Not really... There's this thing called "Friends with benefits" or "one-night stand" lol. and also WHO WOULD HAVE SEX WITH ThEir OWn fAmiLY memBeRs?!!!111 such incest yuck yikes
12. Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
Let's be honest and realistic. NO. Because why? Then I would be unemployed... Unless if I got other offer first then I would gladly offer to leave the company.
13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
Wow I couldn't remember anything.. seriously!! But I think the last time I did that was during foundation studies... maybe... omg I can't remember anymore STAHP!!!!!
14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite/same sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?
It would be harder for me to tell them that I love them of course. I'm really good in ditching people lol so it's..easy(?) to tell them I don't love them back... :D what an evil minion :D I'm such a trash wowow
15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
My dream. I used to have this certain dream that I would like to achieve. I had that dream/ambition since I was in primary school until my last year in high school. People told me to give up on my dream and I had a really hard time because of that. And after that, I successfully ditched my dream and now I don't have any dream :| /sobs/ Life is hard and cruel :(
16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
My best friends haa :D
17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?
Nope.. maybe.. idk???????
18.Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
Wait-- I thought you actually need a cpr license because my seniors told me that when I learnt cpr during high school...
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19. You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
Why would they go there??? Like wtf????? What kind of question is this?? I'm chuckling lol
20. Are you old fashioned?
YES HAHA :D
21. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
Yesterday.
22. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
Yo why is this hard to decide idk maybe never loved at all???? or ???? asfdfgasdbbndsydh i hate you
23. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
Well, I just wish that I could graduate successfully and get a job instantly after graduating and not being a homeless and broke. That's all.. anyway this is kinda fun dibidibidis~~~
Since I already finished my foundation studies, I'm now unemployed and becoming a homebody. Homebody is basically a person who loves to stay at home. Some people might downgrade homebodies as being unadventurous but geez, do they even know how much fun staying at home!!? I believe I'm not the only person who loves to stay at home :3
As a homebody, I find it hard to reject my friends' invitation to hang out. It's mainly because I don't want to hurt their feelings but at the same time, I don't really want to go out because most of the times(not all hangouts fail tho), the hangout plans would fail miserably *sobs sobs* and I eventually regret going out lol. Besides, I don't want to go out because I don't want to waste money. I mean like, why do I have to waste money when I can get free food, wifi and bed at home?? :3
The best part of being a homebody is the activities lol :D
SLEEPING
Yes this is obviously the best thing ever :3 I mean, I'd rather spend hours by sleeping instead of spending my time to go out and meet people! Well, I guess this explains well why I'm always sleepy when I meet people >0<
Watching dramas/cartoons/TV shows/movies
Besides sleeping, watching TV shows alone on the bed with comforter and some food is also very fun. I can spend my time finishing the whole season of a drama lol. And of course, MOVIE MARATHONS (save money ayyy)!
Fangirling
Yes one of the activities that I would do, fangirling over some hot actors or any cute singers. It's fun anyway hahaha :")
this post is dedicated to my buddies that went through shits during foundation studies with me :3
from the movie Sunny(2011-korean). my fav movie yo :D
(it's about friendship, unrequited love,family and reunion haa) cr to rightful owner
友情 (friendship) :) I am honestly very grateful for having good friends that accompanied me through out my foundation studies. Before this, I thought I might not be able to make friends, as I am socially awkward (and emotionally constipated,too). But, I'm very lucky to have a lot of friends and acquaintances during my foundation studies. Let me be frank, I'm actually have this huge "assabiah" spirit in me. "Assabiah" is actually an Arabic word but I think that's the best word to describe myself as someone who belongs to a group. YEAP, berpuak!! And I'm actually closer with my girl friends than my guy friends as I feel more comfortable with them and I can tell my girl friends dirty jokes whenever I want hahahah and maybe because I've been to all-girls schools for 11 years... so that's why I always prefer my girl friends. Some people might say, they prefer guy friends more than girls because less drama. yeah that's right, that's no fun, no drama no fun . ok ok lari tajuk :-o so this will be my appreciation post for my best buddies :-) but i'm not gonna list all of them, just a few. kalau takde, don't worry, i still love yu gais :3
T_T
kanak-kanak riang yang postpone meeting law016 semata-mata nak exercise.
*sighs* apa nak jadi
pizza hut gang
suci sia muka semorang hahahaha
Anna, my Kelantanese friend with that super-Kelantan-spirit hahaha :D Mung memang sempoi, cool and awesome. Obvious sangat minat kau dengan photography. Well, kalau kau dapat achieve minat kau dalam photography, go for it. It'll make you happier :) Try your best and insyaAllah you'll get something in return, trust me :D Be confident and stay sempoi okay :D ❤
Nana, my fellow Nogori friend :-D A quiet and shy person at first, but once you know her, she's actually a sarcastic-badass-girl okay. LWA01D's princess and well-known for her cool styles. *_* She resembles Blair Waldorf (ciked ah jgn perasan angad lak muehehe). But whenever she laughs, she'll laugh like a grandma ahaha :'D At first, susah nak ngam with her but lama-lama okay je budak ni. But kalau nak ngam dengan mudah, talk with her about cats because she loves cats so much. Ok skip to my farewell message for you Nana, thanks for being one of my close friends during my foundation studies. Hopefully we could reunite again with our classmates in future ❤
Nabs, one of the persons that I first met in the class. Ingat lagi our first ELC080 class Mdm Bhajan, we were in the same group together with Sarah and Sarah :D LOL THAT WAS AWKWARD (like seriously awkward gila hahaha), At first, I thought Sarah's your bestfriend tau hahaha. Rupanya, semua pun macam baru kenal. and yeah you're the first introvert (real introvert punyalah!! memang bukan acah-acah introvert dah) yang i jumpa! Sometimes awkward jugaklah but later, okay je. You're actually a cool gal ;) I admire your obsessiveness towards books -- lagi-lagi fictional stories haaa. Anyway, I wish you all the best for the future. ❤
Eiza, first and foremost, thanks for being a kind friend to me. Especially during the first semester, when you helped me a lot when I was sick (besides Sarah). You're one of a kind, genius dalam diam, athletic. Jealous tengok how good you are in sports and education *nangis jap*. and sorry if I failed to be a good friend for you :( I can never repay your kindness T.T Anyway, I'm very sure that you'll pass the second semester with flying colours, like the first semester. Do well in future okay :) Don't worry, I won't forget you :D Thanks for the memories ❤
Yank, my twin!! Comel je aku tengok (haaA PEDO ALERT!!!!) Sangat clingy and cute dengan kawan (yeah kita sama personality gang!!!) Berani berhadapan dengan musuh ketatku iaitu LIPAS. Sentiasa ceria and comel(ok berapa kali nak ulang doh..hhhhh) Petah berbicara, pandai dan aktif wakaka. Pandai berfesyen :""")) unlike me T_T Part paling best, affectionate dgn kwn hahahah i'm so going to miss you *cries* ❤
alamak anna isn't in this photo heol nvrmind
Chacha, a 4-dimensional girl with a big interest towards Kardashians lol. Memang kalau tak kenal dia, orang ingat dia ni pendiam nak mampus (because she's also introvert). But once you get to know her, get ready to be bombarded with middle finger and curses from this girl LMAO. Sangat cool, fashionable and sassy but at the same time, cute mcm Teletubbies punya baby Sun lol. And she's also very intelligent. She's the real definition of beauty with brain okay :) *proud friend here* Sometimes very manja one with friends hahaha. Love you chacha, stay fabulous and intelligent. Good luck for your future, sure dapat Dean's List lagi ni :) ❤
Tati/Sarah, my super adorable-dorky buddy!! Also very sassy one. Can kill you with her powerful sassiness (yep yep), Kelakar nak mampus. The dumber in our dumb and dumber secret partnership (heheh aku cop dulu dumb :p) She wasn't a fan of Kpop before but after awhile, she's now trapped inside the dirty world of Kpop. so, we sometimes fangirl on unnecessary kpop shits for fun :D Sangat cool but hati fragile and can cry easily kalau ada orang lain menangis hahahaha. Sometimes jadi 'photographer' class sebab ada iphone lol kesian doh. Btw, sorrylah sbb suka ambil phone kau and spam phone kau dengan selfie aku yang buruk ni. :""""))) Suka gaduh dengan kau and acah-acah gedik omaigod. Anyway, I love you T_T you'll always be my dumber <3 stay sassy and savage my queen and good luck for your future. ❤
Tia, my fellow January baby!~ Another 4-dimensional girl with a big interest towards Kpop (jugak). I find her very cute actually (gheinyerrr yasss i'm bi eh jk). But sometimes can be very quiet, cepat marah lol, and kuat majox cam baby. and sometimes self-esteem low :( oh bby girl, believe me, you're beautiful the way you are.Be courageous and bold ye. You're way prettier than some hot gurlz in Dengkil. (tak tipu betullah ni hish). And, stay strong whenever you feel down. Somehow, I cannot be there 24/7 for you, so keep your head up and face the harsh world with a strong heart and strong faith in yourself. I love the way you are, I LOVE YOU and stay cute :) Good luck for your future bby ❤
Hana, my other side of me (cewah)! Most of my friends have low confidence, including myself so it's actually quite refreshing to have a friend with stable confidence. But, sometimes I feel pity for her that she has to try her hardest to get her dream CGPA. Sometimes a crybaby(but she only cries about her studies, not boys, kira oklah tu kan!). I appreciate and thank you for being there for me when I was depressed. I'm really grateful that you and our buddies were there for me. Anyway, I will miss all the time we spent together. We have been bestfriends for almost a year, and shared our problems and secrets. I wish all the best for you and thanks for being my friend. ❤
Fin, also a 4-dimensional girl that lives quite near to my place. This is that particular kid who loves to throw shade (lol savage kan) and who loves to shout in the public hahahaha. She's bipolar but not the bipolar disorder. She always has mood swings. You're beautiful (yes I understand how hard for you to realize that you're actually beautiful). Thanks for listening to me whenever I need someone to talk to even though it might be a burden for you. Thanks for allowing me to hug you shamelessly in public. You're one of my friends that could understand all the pain behind my tears. And for you, I could only say stay strong. Hopefully we could meet and hang out together and have fun again. Paint your beautiful face with a smile everytime you're facing calamities. I love you and all the best ❤
the gijibaes. since 1997x1998
Ika, my ex-roommate and housemate! She's really kind, friendly and strong. Sorry kalau aku buat salah :( And thanks for being a good sister to me. I miss the moments when we had to handle Kolej Mawar for awhile and mental-breakdown gila kan :"""))) Gonna miss all the times when you and the others laughed at me because I was bad at talking to someone through phone calls lol. Ya ya aku gagap kahkahkah. Anyway, can't wait to see your first book being published, and tak sabar nak tengok kau duduk pelamin ewah. :) ❤
Wawa, my first Sabahan friend ever!! My gorgeous sister. Memang pujaan setiap kumbang diluar sana wakaka. Pakai apa-apa pun still nampak cantik. Pakailah kain batik ke, kotak ke, still cantik lol. She's very brave and sometimes mudah terhibur. Anak sulung yang kental yang terpaksa tinggal berjauhan daripada keluarga terchenta. Sometimes kesian tengok dia, mesti rindu gila dekat family. Poor bby gurl, time cuti mid-sem, dia je tak balik :[ You're really good at dancing (jealousnyerrr i love dancing too but i just don't have the talent). also petah berbicara and friendly. Anyway, moga dapat kahwin dengan ehem ehem and hopefully we could see each other again! ❤
Intan, my housemate and tablemate(dekat rumah). Waktu first jumpa, tak puas hati dengan minah ni sebab dia dapat cop meja dalam rumah tu dulu lol. And waktu first, ingat dia ni tak friendly. But subsequently, we became best buddies in the house hahaha. Geng kuat menganjing, geng minat kdramas, and banyak jugak similarities between us. Sometimes her words can be harsh tapi I'm already used to it but for some people, maybe susah nak ngam. Thanks for allowing us to borrow your stuff :""""))) THANKS FOR THE DELICIOUS FOOD YAS and tenkiu girl for being a good friend :) ❤
Syaza, used to be Eiza's roommate before. My first impression towards her was quite bad tbh. I thought she's arrogant or something because when we passed by each other in Shah Alam, she rarely smiled back at me .__. But then, suddenly second semester jadi roommate. Haa gitu kan jodoh. She's so obsessed with her cheesy pickup lines lol (cheesy but i actually liked them :p). Kuat menjerit (not literally shouting but erm, bila bercakap, kalau boleh nak bagi satu dunia tau lol). She looks matured tapi tak pun actually ahahaha. So innocent and naive, lagi innocent daripada aku omg T_T Suci macam baby betul budak ni :"""))) Anyway, thanks sbb bagi pinjam barang bagi kami yang mesikin ni lol warga D2-5-7. I love you my hati. You're beautiful (yass you are) and next time kalau jadi roommate lagi, I won't bully you anymore :"""))) ❤
Sarah, my ex-roommate, housemate, and classmate. The first girl that I met in Uitm and the first girl I that I talked to in Uitm. My special and best buddy *_* Very hardworking and classy. We both share the same interest which is Kpop. My first impression towards her is that she looks so polite and kind. Yes dia menepati my first impression but she's the queen of sassy. hahahaha sangatlah diva and princess-like. Very close to her family members, and good in making friends with everyone. Geng kuat menganjing jugak and geng dancerz lol. Me Gustas Tu was our anthem lmao. Anyway, thank you Sarah gorgeous for being there for me. Thanks for all your advices and thanks for being there whenever I was having stress. Thanks for understanding me eventhough I, myself can't even understand myself. Thanks for giving me your shoulder for me to lean on. To me, you're like a sister to me (atau kalau nak over sikit, macam angel hahaha). Hopefully you'll get flying colours for your results and good luck for your future. All the best and hopefully our friendship will last forever and thanks for everything. ❤
warga d2-5-7 (rumah tepi tong sampah dan hujung dunia huhuhuhuhuhu)
In simpler words, thanks to all my friends for giving me such good memories for me to remember. Hopefully our friendships will last forever or at least, last longer. InsyaAllah, we will meet each other again :") To all my friends, thanks for showing me the dreams that I didn't have the courage to achieve all by myself. We might not be able to see each other everyday again, but we are still able to contact each other. :)
Moving on is never easy as what we think it is. Like what my friend said, what's the point if we're trapped in the past because we know we aren't able to feel the joy and happiness that we had before. Well my friend, that's quite true. Isn't it strange how we hold on the pieces of the past while we're searching and waiting for the uncertain future to come? You said that humans forget each other so easily because the only things that remain in them are the good and bad memories. You said that it is never easy to forget memories and you will try to never forget anyone that have survived together with you. You also said that being able to see us again in the future is a kind of destiny and dream that most people want but how many people will remember and want to see us?
Boy, how do you exactly know what other people feel? What if they are actually feeling the same? Don't care about how many people will remember us as long as we are the one who would remember and cherish all the moments that we spent together because wishing for others to remember us but we don't is just...selfish... Let the time speak on how faithful or strong our memories are towards each other and deal with it. Memories will stay as memories. Besides, we don't know if we're seeing the same persons again in future, right? Maybe because that same old person that we used to know is actually dying. It's simply because some people just change within time. We don't know how and when can people change so easily.Well, it seems like there is actually no certainty in life and nothing will last forever. (ps : compiled from my friends' deep talks.. lol :3)
if you're allergic to sentimental posts, don't read this.
I've officially finished my foundation studies, and it's the right time to bid my farewell to my favourite people in foundation studies. I've never felt this sad before(I didn't feel sad when I left high school..yeap). It's surely very hard for me to say goodbye to every person that I've met here. You guys will always be my favorite people <3
At first, I didn't really feel like we're saying goodbye for the last time after the last paper. But once after I saw one by one, left the campus (forever), I then realised that that was our final goodbye. And we may not see each other again. That was it.
the last photo that we took together after the last paper. the final goodbye..
Anyway, let's rewind back to our first semester!
LWA01D -- 12th June 2015.
Our first class photo ever! It was just a few days after we first met each other. :3 I still remember, we were all so awkward during the photography session lol. I miss the awkwardness lol and this was the day we made our own class slogan. "Veni. Vedi. Vici. - We Came. We Saw. We Conquered" I love our class slogan so much <3
18th June 2015
This was the day when we (girls) were waiting for Bus G to come over and fetch us.. We waited at the bus stop near Kolej Perindu for quite long and finally, we decided to go back to Kolej Mawar by walking together.
22nd June 2015.
Our first black and white class photo. Our beloved class representative was the one who suggested us to take class photos with black and white outfits. (At this time, we're still awkward but that awkward bond started to loose :D)
24th June 2015.
Our first iftar together! Well, the boys didn't join us that day, and our non-muslim friends didn't join us too. We had iftar at Jemari at Section 7, Shah Alam and we took pictures before breaking our fast. It was really fun and the food <3
9th July 2015.
This was after our last class before the first semester break (Raya!!!) We were all so excited to go back to our hometown and some of us were quite tired on that day.
7th August 2015.
Asasi SMFUU's rumah terbuka event at the faculty. Well, I still remember how our class representative hated Asasi SMFUU's leader so much lol. And to know that the leader also knew that our class rep hated him so much, he, in return, asked (or maybe forced) our class rep to become ad hoc committee on that event. lol Our class rep whined in our class group as he was really annoyed with that leader. lol so childish :3
13th August 2015.
Our class's first debate session ever! *throws confetti* (but my group had a debate session on another day so yeah). There were 3/4 sessions, which I couldn't remember, but I liked all the sessions.
27th August 2015.
On this day, some of us planned to eat outside the campus. Well, at first we planned to go to Subway as there was free promotion but sadly we didn't get to go there as we're too late. But somehow, we went to Pizza Hut instead and had our dinner there. We didn't really plan to go with so many people, at first. After having dinner, we went again to the Street Arts and took photos, and went to KFC and McD to buy some food for our other friends in the campus lol.
28th August 2015.
Hehehe the library visit!!! YEAS! We had our library visit (to PTAR2) for our LAW038 assignment. As usual the girls would take a lot of pictures. Sadly, I remember that I deleted some photos so I couldn't use those photos. yeap menyesal delete T_T
18th September 2015.
The second library visit! We (the girls) were late but we still had fun :D We conquered the whole bus (bus A or B if I'm not mistaken).
23th September 2015.
Our class photo after the last class for the first semester. We wore black and white outfits to synchronize lol as usual, the class rep suggested this. <3
24th September 2015.
Gang tak balik kampung for Raya Aidiladha. We were really unfortunate on that day because all the stalls at DC were closed, there was only a few buses available. Shops at Section 7, Shah Alam mostly were closed. We had to get our food at KFC lol and we didn't get to eat daging korban :'(
11th October 2015.
This photo was taken after the last paper (LAW012) at Dewan Seri Budiman. Well, we were all happy because we finally get to rest for a month. And that's how our first semester ended.. We had so many fun memories in UiTM Shah Alam <3
Here comes the second semester which is definitely 100x tougher than the first semester in UiTM Dengkil...
30th December 2015.
Our first class photo for the second semester!! Well, I believe our class was the first class ever that took class photo together and in front of the library :3 We got 2 new classmates as well, but they weren't in the picture :( We wore black and white because lol why not? :3
3rd March 2016.
Our class photo that we took after we've done our class assignment for LAW088. We wore black because that's the only colour that everyone has lol. Our class assignment went well despite the problems that we had before presentation day.
17th March 2016.
Our last ELC093 class with our favourite lecturer, Mr Shahrul. We loved this subject because we got a cool lecturer :3
19th March 2016.
Our first(and last) class trip to Port Dickson! We planned to have a class trip because most of us didn't go to the annual dinner. Even though there were problems that we faced, I still don't regret for joining this trip. It was really fun and we had a great time bonding with each other. We had games, and prize ceremony and had bbq party until night :3 Thanks for the delicious food :3
24th March 2016.
Our cool ELC093 lecturer bought us pizzas!! Yesss :3 We had casual talks with our lecturer. Thanks to our beloved lecturer for buying us these delicious pizzas <3 May God bless you!! <3
25th March 2016.
Our last class for the second semester, or in another words, our last class for our foundation studies. We only had one class on that day and yeah erm we took photos with our lecturer as well before saying goodbye to our lecturer.
15th April 2016.
Here comes the saddest part :( This was after our last paper (Law039) and this was our last time together with our classmates. We took photos under the scorching hot sun lol because it was during the afternoon. It was the day when we bid farewell to each other.
I feel bittersweet. First, it's because I love all the memories that we had. Secondly, it's because I feel sad for leaving these great people and knowing that I might not be able to meet them again. But InsyaAllah, if God wills it, we would meet each other again. I believe in that. Thanks for the memories that we got. Thanks for the friendships. Thanks for the scars that gave me life lessons. Thanks for helping me when I needed help the most. Thanks for everything, my dear friends. Remember, there will be more tough roads in front of us, and all we gotta do is, survive through these. Believe me, I'll always pray for our success. Come back and be good lawyers or politicians. Destroy the current dictators and bring back the peace and love that we all fought for during debate sessions and discussions. Don't forget me and last but not least, I love all of you. I know they don't know about the existence of this post but let me just thank them in this post. :) Thanks Abu for being a good friend to everyone, you're the best! Ad, you're doing great, don't worry! Cha cha, please show your emotions lol and stay fabulous! Tia, you need to know that you're cute and pretty okay :) Farah, stay pretty and be confident like always! Hana, yes you're the cutest kid ever hahahaha and I always admire your efforts <3 Ollan, I hope you'll be the old cute and kind Ollan and be a good politician in future. Intan, please jangan stare lelama kat cermin lol be confident okay! Mayo, tolong tinggi sikit, kesian tengok asyik kena jengket je hahahah! Taqi, behave please aku duk perati je perangai mcm bebudak hahahah. Jiji, good luck everytime kau join debate, make us proud!! Syafiq, comel mcm bear tpi annoying hahahah, good luck for your future~ Shot, my cute sister tapi jangan gelabah sangat eh hahahaha. Anna, pursue what you love, because that'll make you happier, that's for sure. Eein, stay sassy and stay intelligent! Fin, I'm always here for you :3 Kentut je dengan confident, I support hahahh You're beautiful inside out, don't worry <3 Yank, my cute twin ^3^ stay cute stay pandai and let's meet again and jadi twins lgi :3 Fath, tak penat ke jadi cantik hahahaha luv you muahhhh :D Nab, I love your confidence, teach me how to be confident and sassy okay teacher :3 Anne, geng 150cm and below, stay smol and kiut so that we can still fit in the geng muehehe. Rin, my giant mommy, stay pretty and good luck in future <3 Eiza jiranku, thanks for being there for me whenever I needed help, ^_^ Mimie, one of the divas, stay happy and cheerful, spread that positive vibes :3 Ren, you need to know that we'll always help you okay. Tatii, stay diva and classy, and kaulah dumber, aku dumb, okay kan muahahah :-) Kak Yam, cool sgt akak ni, akak sekolah agama paling cool and sassy!! Sarah, nak thanks je tak cukup, anyway you're my best buddy ever, thanks for everything, babe <3 Su, I always admire your fashion sense and you're one of the coolest kid I've ever seen okay haa :3 Jie, stay calm like always and I like your manners :)
